This is my first entry to say I am no longer afraid to say how I feel. I am not worried if the church approves of my thoughts and if my ideals don't represent me as an ideal wife ,mother of four, friend ,daughter, sister, cousin, neice, and so on. For years I have tried to please. I have got crapped on left and right because of it. Can I put this on Fb what person will this make me I have hit a point in my life that I dont care anymore and I am tired so mentally exhausted of trying to be this perfect person. I am not doing it anymore I have depression and bipolar my grandmother had schitzophrenia my dad and his fake family that abandoned mine lives in their perfect world and blames my mother with issues that he walked out on his complete family because of her . F*** yourself you let a spouse control your life. I am strong enough to say thankyou because you were not strong enough to love your parents my grandparents were the most amazing subsitutes parents I recieved. I am not venting about my worthless Daddy I am just saying who reads this dont worry about what happens in the past it makes me strong and I am a Damn amazing mom and I dont care if the world knows. I at first was going to say screw it but realize there are kids that are out there I will not cuss on here so at times it is hard to be completely free. I will do my best. No promises. I have views that people wont agree with but if it disturbs you quit reading. I believe in God raised my children in church I believe whoever you love is your choice If your bi lesbian gay straight who really cares as long as you got love. I see so many people who suffer because they are never allowed to be who they want to be. I need to quit lying to myself I believe that people need to stop being so uptight but I am learning to love my real self whoever that is I will figure it out somehow. Or at least it will be a journey trying to figure it out. This is an intro of what is yet to come thanks for taking time to listen!
YOLO